Monday, October 8, 2012

Catholics, Hindus, and Teargas: All Things That Make Me Cry (October 17, 2012)



Catholics
Last Sunday, I journeyed out to Madera, a village out past the flying school, to attend Chelsea’s baptism.  When I first got to the Catholic church, I thought I was in the wrong place.  The building was still under construction with no windows, huge parts of the roof missing, and bricks piled up everywhere.  There were dozens of people standing outside the church.  Joanna arrived right after me and we made our way inside.  Someone offered us their plastic chairs as we sat off to the side of the altar.  We caught the tail end of the English mass which had started at 7:30.  The next mass would be held in Ateso.  Joanna was in charge of video, and I took still photos with Chelsea’s very intimidating camera.  But I really enjoyed it.  Joanna and I joked that we should go into business after Peace Corps.

Although the mass had several similarities of Catholic services I had attended back home, (as they say here), it felt very “free”.  A group of musicians played local instruments and sang unfamiliar, but uplifting hymns.  A troupe of young girls sporting blue and white dresses danced down the aisles to accompany the offering or the communion. Women would yell “AIYAYAIAYAIYAI-YAAAAAAAAH!” in the middle of a song.  This was not confined to the church service.  One of the women who worked at Enakyu Village Hotel made this sound as we approached the entrance and startled us.  Even the nuns made did this during the small, informal reception afterwards. 

Besides Chelsea, there were two other people who got baptized that day.  The man was a boda boda (motorcycle) driver, and the woman, Margaret, was a nurse.  They all wore white.  Chelsea had on a simple, but beautiful knee-length dress with lacey sleeves.  Margaret wore a traditional gomesi (a Ugandan dress with huge, puffy, pointy sleeves and a big belt). I’m not incredibly religious, but I teared up several times.  Between the music, the dancing, and the outbursts of joy, I just couldn’t help but get swept up with everyone else.  Also, I was really touched that Chelsea invited me to be a part of such an important day although we had only known each other a few months.  Even though I was the new kid on the block, I was welcomed with open arms by people she had known for two years.   

At the reception afterwards, we ate, drank, and laughed. The most memorable part was drinking sherry with nuns.  Of course, mine was mixed with beer.  As part of Ugandan tradition, everyone has to introduce themselves and say a little speech.  Chelsea, Jo, and I cried several times.  Ibrahim’s host father joined us and said something very touching at the end of the reception:  “If America and Peace Corps keeps sending people like you, who are on the ground, to other countries, I believe that America will be the one to bring countries together and improve international relations.”      

Hindus
Today as I was shopping in OM Supermarket, I spotted a brown tabby cat.  When one of the clerks noticed me to trying to call it over, he guided me to the back room to show me a kitten.  Two Indian men were eating lunch; I apologized for disturbing them and said I just wanted to see the kitten.  I took off my shoes and one invited me to sit on the couch.  The clerk brought the kitten to me (incredibly ADORABLE with tortoise shell markings), but it leapt out of my lap after a few seconds. Not able to get my kitty fix, I was ready to leave, but the man sitting across from me in a swing said “You will eat Indian food?”  Um, Is Gandhi Hindu? YES!!  A local girl served me Masala rice with cilantro, yogurt, and something similar to papadum (imagine a giant, round corn chip).  We introduced ourselves and his name is Situ (I’m sure I’m butchering the spelling).  I had seen him several times as his family runs OM and MY Supermarkets, which I shop in one or the other almost everyday.  Every time I saw him, he greeted me with a silent smile and his hands folded like he was praying.  So, I was happy to finally have the chance to talk to him.  He’s been in Uganda for twelve years and his wife just had their second daughter yesterday back in India.  Like many other Indians I’ve met that emigrated out of the country, he’s from Gujarat, a state in the western part of India.  Gandhi was from there.  In 2009, I visited its capital city of Ahmedabad with a few other Peace Corps Volunteers so we could tour the ashram where Gandhi launched his non-violent independence campaign.  Situ actually reminded me of Gandhi.  With a shaved head and one leg tucked under him on that swing, he had very peaceful aura.

After we finished eating, he really started talking, mostly about Hinduism and its scripture, the Gita, which was next to him.  I was suddenly in no hurry to leave.  All around the room were pictures of Hindu gods:  Ganesha (half elephant, half-man), Shiva the Destroyer (one of my favorites…I actually have a batik of him), and Krishna. He said “Hinduism has many gods. But I believe that no matter what religion we are, we are praying in a parallel way”.  He was pointing with both his hands up and would alternate inching up them up towards the ceiling.  I agreed with him and told him that was a really beautiful way of phrasing it. I never got tears in my eyes, but at some point during our conversation, I got a lump in my throat.  His hospitality and sense of contentment derived from his faith humbled me. Tomorrow he’s flying home to meet his new daughter.  After I thanked him, he gave me a standing invitation to come back anytime I want to eat lunch with them.        

Teargas
The last time I had been in that same room was my first week in Soroti when Linda and I ran there because we heard gunshots being fired in neighboring Independence Square.  People were running away from the square screaming.  She grabbed my arm and led me to a room where we found Situ and his family eating lunch.  We apologized and explained the situation to them.  A few days later, we found out that it was tear gas that had been fired at a crowd because a political rally was being held without the proper permits. This was my first encounter with tear gas, but not my last. 

Last night, Paul was driving me to my house with my new table and chairs.  Just before we turned off Lira Road, he said, “did you see that?! It was like a cloud shot across the sky very low.”  I joked that it was UFO, which I had to explain to him.  When we turned onto my little road, there were dozens of people walking in our direction.  He said that it a high school farewell party (similar to a graduation ceremony) must have ended.  When we parked the truck, they started running.  But I noticed several people were smiling and laughing, so I didn’t think too much about it.  Paul said “I think the farewell party must have ended badly.”

After we moved the furniture in and Paul left, I kicked a ball around the yard with Joshua (the oldest boy on the compound), Innocent (second youngest son of Kristen), and Juliet, a woman in her twenties.  After a few minutes, they were all standing on a sand pile trying to look over the fence at the people passing on the road.  When I asked what was going on, Joshua said “they are running from tear gas”.  Joshua and Sheila (a 3-4 year old girl from a different family) wondered outside the gate to check things out.  I didn’t feel like it was a good idea to just let them just hang out there.  So, I followed them out there where I overheard a woman sitting on the other side of the road saying “I don’t know what has gotten into children these days.  They must be possessed by the devil!”  I told Joshua to get inside and I picked up Sheila.  Joshua started to hold his nose and fan his face.  At first, I thought he was exaggerating because I didn’t smell or notice anything different.  But as I went around back to return Sheila to her parents, sure enough, my nose started to burn and run.  It was getting dark and I could start to see the smoke.  I noticed that my laundry was still on the line from this afternoon.  Great.  Not only do I have to take in the laundry while breathing in tear gas, I have to do it in the dark because the power is out.

After I was settled in the house, I heard sirens approaching.  On the rare occasion I do hear sirens, it’s almost always an ambulance.  Last night I was almost certain that they were police sirens.  I’m curious to see if this will be in the national newspaper.  Never a dull moment in Nakatunya!

   



Baggage (September 21, 2012)



The only baggage you can bring is all that you can’t leave behind
…………………………………………………………………………………….
You’re packing a suitcase for a place none of us has been
A place that has to believed to be seen

Lyrics from “Walk On” by U2

In the months leading up to the big move into my new house, I fantasized about unpacking in a deliriously happy frenzy.   The reality is that I’m having a really hard time doing it.  I tell myself that it’s because I don’t have enough shelf space in my closet yet.  Every day I only unpack a few articles of clothing or toiletries, and even that feels like a chore.  My big red backpack is still sitting on my bedroom floor with a heap of clothes on top of it.  Amidst black caveras (Swahili for plastic bag), books, random kitchen supplies, and pillows scattered across my tiled living room floor is my green rolling duffel bag.  I just don’t feel like dragging it into my bedroom.  So, everyday I pick through each bag or heap looking for something moderately “smart”, clean, and unwrinkled to wear.  And admittedly, today I’m wearing a shirt that I pulled out of the dirty laundry bucket.  Unpacking my navy blue Samsonite toiletry bag was downright painful.  As I forced myself to transfer things into plastic baskets, I never felt satisfied no matter how many times I rearranged them.  I’m afraid that once I am completely unpacked, I will feel just like my bags: empty.

When I look at my bags, I’m reminded of the people who gave them to me and all the places I’ve carried them.  I bought “Big Red” in Scotland in 2001 while shopping with Alice, and its yellow cover was purchased in China.  My brother, Steve gave me the green duffel as a Christmas gift before making its maiden voyage to Japan in 2003.  It somehow ripped near the zipper en route to the Dakar airport.  Nicole, another PCV, lent me some tape to repair it.  I’ll never forget trying to rip the tape with my teeth, sweat dripping down my legs as we shuffled towards the check-in counter with our carts.  It probably will retire in Uganda.  The blue Samsonite was a gift from Mom and I refuse to think about the day when I have to replace it.  

It’s not the bags I’m attached to, but my nomadic lifestyle. Honestly, I was so used to living out of my bags and staying in a different place almost every week, that I probably could have done it for the remaining nine months of my service.        

Last night I went for quick walk around my neighborhood, Nakatunya.  I walked down the dirt road past my house, weaving past a boys’ hostel, people cooking outside their houses, and little kids playing with tire tubes. Instead of doubling back, I decided to walk on Lira Road.  Lira Road is like the Highway 62 of Eastern Uganda.  It’s actually paved really well (thanks to the People’s Republic of China) and is always crowded with people riding bikes, motorcycle boda bodas, uniformed students going to and from school, mutatu taxi vans, and semi trucks travelling between Kenya and South Sudan.  Because it was just getting dark, there were lots of people out socializing around barber shops housed in little shacks, shops and bars.  For some strange reason, while walking down that stretch of Lira Road for the first time, it didn’t feel like I was in Soroti or even Uganda.  It felt like I had just arrived in an unfamiliar part of Africa.  I guess in a way I had reached a different place, just not in the geographical sense.

The smell of g-nuts (short for groundnuts, which I think are peanuts, but my coworkers debate this with me) drew me over to a woman sitting next to several Tupperware containers of g-nut sauce for sale.  I didn’t have any money on me, but I plan on going back to buy a small one so I can cook with it.   

My friend Danielle made a brilliant post on facebook this morning:

I've decided the cruel thing about life is that when you have security you want freedom and when you have freedom you want security.”

I couldn’t agree more.  Yesterday morning I woke up smelling bacon and yearned to be in my Mom’s house in Kentucky.  I’m almost certain that when I get back to Kentucky I’ll miss the smell of g-nut paste in Uganda.

Letter to Mitt Romney (September 19, 2012)



September 19, 2012

Dear Mr. Romney:

President Obama is your opponent.  Not me, not other Americans, not the 47%.  We are not the “others” or “them”.  Don’t forget, we are not just potential voters, but your fellow Americans: Republican. Democrat. Black. White. Latino. Asian. Native. Gay. Straight. Jewish. Christian. Buddhist. Atheist. Agnostic. Hindu. Sikh. Muslim. Rich. Poor.  Whatever.

Those wanting to vote for you I refuse to label with a percentage or anything else, because they are not an abstract. They are my mother, my friends, my neighbors, my family, and my fellow Peace Corps Volunteers. 

Today I will be printing off my absentee ballot and mailing it in with fingers crossed that it will arrive on time so my vote actually counts.  After living in several developing countries, I’ve realized just how privileged I am as an American to participate in a democracy.  Billions will never know that great feeling of walking out of a voting booth and earning that little sticker. 

As a Peace Corps Volunteer, I often fumble until I my find way.  But I believe in what I do.  And I like to think that despite belonging to a different party, so do you.

I think about these lyrics everyday here in Uganda:

I was raised up believing I was somehow unique
Like a snowflake distinct among snowflakes, unique in each way you can see
And now after some thinking, I’d say I’d rather be
A functioning cog in some great machinery serving something beyond me

From the song “Helplessness Blues” by Fleet Foxes

Although I won’t be voting for you, next year you might be my president.  So please, drop the percentages and the labels.  Whether you win or lose the election, strive to become the cog that Americans need you to be in the great machinery of not only our country, but also the world. 

Sincerely,
Ashley Givan
Peace Corps Response Volunteer, Uganda
Returned Peace Corps Volunteer (2007-2009), China















Nigeria +Ghana +US+ Kenya = Uganda (September 17, 2012)




This past week I’ve had a lot to process; experiencing my first net distribution, Linda leaving Soroti, and moving into my new house. 

Distribution Drama
Our net distribution experienced shortages in the thousands, people fighting over nets, and semis getting stuck in the mud, but the real drama happened behind the scenes.  The same Ministry of Health guy, “J”, (whom I argued with about sexual harassment) was at the center of it.  He and I argued again this week, but that’s just a minute part of what unfolded.

The day before the distribution we were all busy helping each other finish calculations and allocating nets.  Sister Grace joined us to help with the paperwork.  She’s probably in her 50’s, and when I first met her two weeks ago, I was a little intimidated by her.  J walked up to where we were sitting, and out of nowhere, Grace just started telling him off:

Grace: J, you think you’re the boss of these people and everyone is complaining about working with you!  Why can’t you just be a part of the team?!  You say you’re from the Ministry of Health, but you’re not.
J: I have my appointment as a medical social worker. I am an employee of the ministry. I have my letter.
Grace: You are just an intern.  Everyone is complaining about you.  Even her (pointing at me as I just kept my head down and traced red ink over the allocation numbers).
J: I can leave now. Where is your letter? (standing in a wide stance with his hands on hips). 
Grace: You get away from me!  
In one swift motion, she took off her shoe and started hitting him with it!  I really thought that I was about to see my first fight in Africa.
Grace: Don’t play with me! You even told me that these girls f***** the drivers. 

I guess to save face, he went over to another group and started talking to them like nothing happened.  Finally, when he left the shelter, and we all just died laughing.  Stella, (whom I’ve been working with most on our subcounty), said “Ashley, I thought you were going to run away!! This was like a Nigerian movie!  Nigeria versus Ghana!”  I’ve never seen any Nigerian movies, but they are pretty popular in Africa. 

Sister Grace said that J had been saying that to get a job in the Ministry of Health you needed to have her last name. They also said that he had been spreading rumors about some of the girls getting paid to sleep with the drivers and even with their cousins.  Sister Grace said they she had even heard all the way down in Kampala about him and me arguing.  Wow! News travels fast about muzungus, I guess.  It just affirmed that J was persona non grata and that if I ever need a bodyguard, I’m calling Sister Grace.        
     
The actual day of the distribution, I was shuffled around a bit, but was finally assigned to go with Deo to Labor (Lah-Boar) Subounty.  He had eight different distribution points, which were close to each other.  We crisscrossed the subounty all. day. long.  I bet we visited each distribution point at least three times.  There was a shortage at one place of over 15 bales (1500 nets), so we went back to Obangin because there was an excess of 4 bales. Upon returning, we found out that people were angry because some of the Village Health Teams failed to register several households. Patrick, a local nurse, who had been assisting us, said that eventually people started fighting over the nets.  They overpowered him and a police officer, so he just left.  Apparently, this village has a reputation for being a bit feisty.  The local councilman said that he tried to warn us. 

Many of our distribution points were in front of primary schools.  The student’s uniforms are every color of the rainbow.  In one day, I can see kids at different schools running around in pink, purple, yellow, blue and orange.  At one school, all the kids in pink started gathering around the truck to take a peek at me sitting in the back.  At first, I played it cool by jotting down some notes.  But then I decided to have some fun with them.  So, I yelled “BOO!” at them and put my hands up like claws.  They all screamed and laughed and ran back a few feet.  Because there were so many of them crowding around the other staff trying to do actual work, I asked them to follow me to the other side of the tree.  I felt like the muzungu pied piper.  Although I was an English teacher for a few years, I couldn’t think of a single game or activity to play with them.  I asked them to sing something for me, but they were way too shy.  So, we took a few “snaps” together instead.      

Letting Go….
For Linda’s last day in Soroti, Joanna and I accompanied her to the Kapiri, the ancestral village of our friend Charles.  It was a bittersweet experience because as this was my first time to a village, it was Linda’s last.   After the bus dropped us, we walked about ten minutes until we “reached” (as they say in Uganda).  His mother, Margaret still lives there.  We were shown incredible hospitality by her and their other relatives.  We sipped sodas under the mango tree before dining al fresco on chicken, beef, rice, “g-nut” sauce, and atap (Teso “bread” made from millet…it’s more like a paste, really). Wind gusts from a passing storm forced us into one of the round huts, which was nice and cool.  After the storm passed, we took our beers and went on a little nature walk toward the lake.  Charles and his mother pointed out millet, rice, and cassava crops.

It was about 8:30 by the time we made it back to the road. As there weren’t many taxis or buses at that time of night, we flagged down a semi hauling fuel.  It was a really steep climb into the cab where we met two very friendly Kenyan drivers.  They had come from Nairobi and were en route to Juba, South Sudan.  Linda, Jo, and I sat on the seat behind and above them as Charles sat in between the two Kenyan men.  What usually takes about 30 minutes in a private car, took us an hour in the truck.  As I’ve said before, the road has huge potholes.  We laughed as we got bumped around and as Charles kept trying to take a “snap” of the three of us.  He has nicknames for all of us…I’m the African Queen, Linda is the Professor, and Jo is the President.  So, we joked at what an impressive international gathering we had in the truck.  When he dropped us in town, he honked the horn as he pulled away.  At thirty-two, I still get a kick out of that.  Needless to say, hitching a ride in the truck was SO FUN!!

Yesterday morning, I took Linda a “rolex” for breakfast so we could hang out before she left.  A rolex is a fried egg rolled in a chapatti that many street vendors sell.   Her good friend and coworker, Betty was also coming over to see her off.  I had been hearing about Betty for months, so I was excited to finally get to meet her.  I asked Linda if I should leave so they could have some privacy as they say their goodbyes.  After all, they had known each other for over two years.  Linda said it didn’t bother her, but thought that Betty might appreciate the gesture.  But when Betty and her sister, Kristen arrived, they both hugged me.  After a few minutes of talking, Betty wanted to have a prayer for Linda.  We all held hands and Betty started singing “Praise Him”.  I’m not incredibly religious, but just being included in that moment coupled with Linda leaving, I was really moved.  As they prayed for Linda’s safety and gave thanks for their friendship, I had tears running down my face.  For comic relief, I grabbed a roll of “KFC” toilet paper from the bathroom for wiping our eyes.  That’s right, the KFC, with a picture of Colonel Sanders on the front.  I guess the Chinese thought that ripping off KFC would be lucrative in the African toilet paper market.         

And Moving On…
Living in a developing country forces you to be resourceful and creative, especially around the house. When I arrived in my new house after 9:00 pm, I realized that only the kitchen had a light bulb.  I had no other furniture than the bed.  So, I picked up my 130 liter “Smile” brand refrigerator and moved it into the living room.  After saying a little prayer that I didn’t break my neck, I climbed up on the fridge in the dark and screwed in the light bulb.  Then, I somehow managed to tiptoe on the rail at the foot of my bed to illuminate the bedroom. 

Last night, the power went off.  With nothing else to do entertain myself, I decided to take my first real cold shower.  At the moment, I can’t even boil water for a bucket bath because the one supermarket in town that actually had gas cans for sale didn’t have the accompanying hose.  Although I took Linda and Joanna’s advice to buy an electric tea kettle as a backup, that option went out with the power.  I have “club” candles (which are just short ones that I guess look good on tables in nightclubs).  But of course, I couldn’t find the Krishna wax matches in the bottomless pit of my rolling duffle bag that I haven’t unpacked in three months.  I swear that every box of matches in Uganda has a picture of Krishna, (a Hindu god) as a child on it.  So, I wrapped my headlamp around the door handle of the bathroom. It worked pretty well and the shower was actually tolerable at the end.

My first two nights in my new house have also been spent battling cockroaches.  Big ones.  Little ones.  I’ve probably killed at least 30, mostly in my kitchen and bathroom.  I chase them around with Doom (Africa’s version of Raid) and my tennis shoes when they refuse to die quickly. They prefer to party at night.  So, last night, I got the song “We Like to Party” by Beyonce stuck in my head during my killing spree.   Now, if I could just be like Princess Giselle in Enchanted, and get them to clean by singing, I would have it made.